We can do this…

I’ve been busy so i haven’t been able to post anything but since the last post i gained a pound and then lost two. So i think i’m doing pretty good and its not hard anymore to stay away from those good foods that i was eating before. I think salads have become my favorite along with the pizza from lean cuisine and smart ones. I eat more salads now in a week than i have in my entire life haha  but its all good. Also, southwestern ranch baked lays are keeping me going as well. I love those about as much as salads now. Anywho, just thought i would update.

Well i’ve lost the pound that i gained from the anniversary dinner. I did eat chicken and rice today though because i was about to starve and was at work and didn’t want to eat a very unhealthy sub so i decided chicken and rice would be more healthy :) It was good and thats all i’ve eaten today besides a personal bag of baked lays. I do feel alot better about myself though i still look fat in my pictures i know that i’ve lost weight and thats all that matters. That; and that i feel better about myself. I think  now as the weeks go by i’m gonna have to work harder and harder week after week to lose it now but like i always say… it’ll be worth it in the end!

Well, gained a pound. I know it had to be the anniversary dinner but its all good cause i really enjoyed that dinner. It was great and our anniversary was awesome too. Nothing special happened like i wanted it to but he was very loving and made it known that he appreciated these past 3 years together. He is so amazing!!!!! I couldn’t ask for anyone better to be with. Anywho, bloomin onions are the most amazing invention along with wii fit!!! haha. I’m so getting me one for christmas. My gift to myself. I added up everything last night and for the wii console another contoller two numchucks and the wii fit plus it would be 409.95 brand new with tax. I’m hopin that after christmas i’ll have enough money to get me one. If you have money that you can spend on something and really want to lose weight and have fun doing it by playing games then you should def. buy a wii and wii fit. You have to have the numchuck and controller to play some of the games though!!!! I promise you wont regret it. I LOVE IT!!! I CANT WAIT TO GET ONE!!! lol

Well, again no weight loss. I did try out a wii fit today at a friends house and is totally asking for one for christmas and if i dont get it then i’m takin my money i get from christmas and getting me one. Wii fit is AMAZING. I love it ALOT! I would be on that thing all day if i had one. It’s alot of fun and you actually burn calories and it tests your balance and everything. I love that thing. Anyways, i’ll post again morrow!!

Still at only and eight pound loss but i feel so much better already. I can tell in my belly that i’ve lost weight so can the boyfriend!!!! That makes me feel great! Anywho, hopefull morrow i’ll be below where i am now and i’ll be majorly excited. Today is my three year anniversary (not married just being b/f g/f) and we’re  goin out to eat… i dont wanna cheat but i dont want a salad.. i mean HELLO! It’s our anniversary!!!! lol Any suggestions on what i should eat?

Well i didnt lose but one pound this weigh in but i think starting now its gonna be harder for me to lose weight. I’ve always lost a few pounds the first week or so then i had to work extra hard to lose more weight. I’m loving this though. It’s like if i want to eat something i know i shouldn’t eat i know i’m gonna post it in my food journal later and then it makes me not want it. Weighing in every morning helps me out too. I know that i want to see that bar move closer to my mini goal and not the other way so it keeps me in check because i look forward to weighing in. Anyways, I’m off to yet another day the Firehouse Subs.

Well i’ve lost a total of seven pounds in two days…. its sad that i look forward to weighing in every morning. I guess what i’m doing is working… the counting calories thing isn’t too bad.

Off to work…. more later

Well, this morning i woke up with a huge headache because i havent had any soda for an entire day. I used to drink soda and thats it. On top of that though i felt like a whole new person because i feel like this time i can do this. It wasnt so bad yesterday i ate a nutri grain bar for breakfast, when i got to work i ate a personal size bag of baked lays regular chips, for lunch i did eat an 8” sub but i added all the calories up and changed to wheat bread instead of white. I ate a cup of mac n cheese and a salad from mcdonalds with just a little bit of fat free italian dressing. I’m sitting here right now thinkin i have only lost 3 pounds but i feel amazing already. I just have this whole new outlook on dieting and i know once i lose weight my back won’t hurt me anymore and my ribs wont be sore from sittin down and all this fat just laying on top of them. I’m bout to go drive down my road and figure out what a mile is and try to walk 2 miles, time it, and try to factor that in my morning routine everyday from now on before work or whatever i need to do that day.

Amanda and Candi… you two so far have helped me more than you guys could EVER know. Thanks amanda for getting me into this website and talkin me through this and thanks Candi for the inspirational words.

Ok so i just started this today thanks to my older sister but i think this will be good for both of us because we will have each other and others out there to help us along the way. I haven’t always been overweight. When i was younger i used to be skinny as a rail. I played soccer, basketball, soccer, and volleyball so i was a farely active person throughout my teen years. I injurned my knee and got lazy when i turned old enough to do things on my own and make my own decisions. Not to mention when you get to that age you have responsibilities that come with age so it tacked on some stress. I love food, what can i say. It’s my comfort, my stress reliever, and what i want to do when i get bored. I have a treadmill and a weight set that is sittin in my garage but with workin and goin to school when i get home i just wanna relax and needless to say… eat. I look in the mirror and i see this huge fat cow and it upsets me so what do i do… go eat.  I hate hating myself for letting myself get this big and i dont like it one bit. I get out of the shower and look at myself and wonder why anyone could ever love this. Thank god i have a loving boyfriend who will love me no matter what and sees that i’m beautiful inside. I know he thinks i’m beautiful on the outside because he has said so; but i dont feel beautiful at all. I feel gross and sick. Another thing, when family comes in and we all take pictures at christmas and stuff and i see the pictures later, i wanna cry because i’m the one that looks like a balloon out of my two sisters and my mother. I swear it looks like i ate all three of them.I’m not looking for anyone to feel sorry for me because i know that i let myself get this way and i dont feel as big as i am and i dont feel like i look as big as i am but in pictures and things i see the truth and its ugly and its gonna change starting today.

Going to work now… FIREHOUSE SUBS, its not exactly amazing but its a job for now.